mourning is hard. grief comes and goes and is hard sometimes when you least expect it, and doesn't go away. i know oli wasn't my mum, but some days i miss her dreadfully. the hardest bit is having to be consumed in her estate paperwork, stressing about insurance claims and all of the work that's just been finished, in sorting out her house and her belongings. it's rough. i tried so hard to do as much as i could, so as not to burden doug. he has dealt with more than enough, after losing both his parents in such a small amount of time. losing one parent is heart wrenching, both? beyond devastation.
one of her insurance claims is stressing me more than it should. she had income protection insurance with a company, who paid out her first two claims, then decided that due to "undisclosed previously existing issues" that they were not going to pay another, and that's an email we got home to on the day of the funeral. i called, i got mad and i told them it was unacceptable, especially their timing. a week later, i had another call, informing us they would be paying out the claim in full. i felt so much relief and so blessed, but even though their words were "as a gesture of good will" i have to wonder if it was purely because they knew there would be no further claims. not that it matters, of course.
the final claim we are waiting on, is with a different department of the same company and it is stressing me to no end. what if we are met with the same outcome? i know there is nothing at all we can do to change it, but there are so many prayers flying up in the hopes that this can be sorted and be approved.
all we can do is wait and keep putting one foot in front of the other.
